First of all, as of right now, I don't know anyone directly who has Covid19, and I sure hope it stays that way, but the odds aren't looking great, especially since we have so many friends from all over the globe! I know that those who are truly suffering in hospitals by themselves, whether with coronavirus or not, are the people we really need to be sending positive love towards; and their families and the medical professionals who are helping them to deal. The rest of us like to complain about the annoyances of stay at home orders and quarantines, but unless you lost your job and you can't pay the bills, we all need to try to stay more positive. We are going to have our up and down days for sure. I have had them already, missing my family, worrying for my family, missing friends, missing travel, worrying about going grocery shopping, worrying about touching the mailbox, crossing the street during a neighborhood walk to stay within the 6 foot guidelines of social distancing. I love connecting with people, meeting people, making friends, helping out my community, but that is really hard right now, other than over Zoom or Whatsapp, so we have been taking full advantage of those chats!
We have no kids to be thrust into home schooling right now, wow, parents, I feel for you! My jobs were put on pause, and I have an overwhelming feeling of wanting to help out seniors, but not knowing how, other than to call those who I know often. A lot of our happiness was derived from local friend get togethers and from family and friends visiting almost every weekend the last half of 2019. But, what I'm trying to do is switch being sad that I can't do that, I'm just thankful that we had such a full year in 2019, thankful for framily get togethers, thankful that we packed so much in and now it is time to relax. Relax? I really do NOT know that word, so I'm slowly working out the kinks! This morning, I put on Vitamin String Quartet and I ironed curtains! I have always despised ironing because it takes patience that I do not have, but for some reason, this morning it did not seem like a chore, it seemed like it was therapeutic. I connected to my Mom and my grandmothers through thinking about them teaching me to iron a long, long time ago.
I'm also a planner, I love planning travel, happy hours, fundraisers, get togethers, activities, etc. I guess I'm realizing as I type, that may be what's affecting me the most currently. If you share in this with me, I think I figured out something that would help. I scheduled on a printed out calendar for April things like date nights, movie nights, hiking, biking, outdoor games, brunch, virtual happy hours, virtual family meet ups, sunrise, sunset, reading, journaling, massages, pedicures/manicures done on my own, virtual hula class, virtual workout classes, just to name a few. It feels good to have plans, because that is how my personality works and how I have stayed happy for almost 42 years! I think this is something I am in control of and it gives me power, the power for hope towards an even better future than I already thought possible. There is no need in overstressing about the things you cannot control, so I'm going to try to stay informed, but all the while, imagining hugging my parents, imagining our first visitors, imagining our first travel back for Maureen's wedding, imagining having a party at our house. Who knows when any of those might be, but I'm going to keep hoping for the future. Until then, as my grandma used to say "Home is Where the Heart Is"
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